If I was Sad Like This..

Funny how when you can feel joy then turned to sadness when the person you shared your life with just feel sad? And the hardest part is that you are not there to comfort him/her and nothing you said get thru..
I am sad, yes and there is nothing I wouldn't do to see that smile again...

Where have I go

I have not been a very good blog writer. I take my time, I went AWOL and it's just so hard to find time to write nowadays.

So instead, I read what other people write and just be satisfied for the time being. My latest read..The Crow TPB by James O Barr. I watched the movie, all four of them. But nothing has prepared me when I read the book...such compelling story line, how he pours his heart out thru the visual and the written form. You can feel his pain and it affected me. It made me look at my life and those people I love most. Imagine losing the one you love when you still need them?

The thought is unbearable, too much to take that I stop thinking for awhile just to not let that thing bother me. Crap..and yes, I dwell too much about it now. Can't be helped, LOL. Damned me and my suckerness for melancholic reading material.

I take my leave now...I need to sleep on this and hope it will go away, fast. I can't take feeling like this for a long long time...my heart will cry out in pain.