If I was Sad Like This..

Funny how when you can feel joy then turned to sadness when the person you shared your life with just feel sad? And the hardest part is that you are not there to comfort him/her and nothing you said get thru..
I am sad, yes and there is nothing I wouldn't do to see that smile again...

Where have I go

I have not been a very good blog writer. I take my time, I went AWOL and it's just so hard to find time to write nowadays.

So instead, I read what other people write and just be satisfied for the time being. My latest read..The Crow TPB by James O Barr. I watched the movie, all four of them. But nothing has prepared me when I read the book...such compelling story line, how he pours his heart out thru the visual and the written form. You can feel his pain and it affected me. It made me look at my life and those people I love most. Imagine losing the one you love when you still need them?

The thought is unbearable, too much to take that I stop thinking for awhile just to not let that thing bother me. Crap..and yes, I dwell too much about it now. Can't be helped, LOL. Damned me and my suckerness for melancholic reading material.

I take my leave now...I need to sleep on this and hope it will go away, fast. I can't take feeling like this for a long long time...my heart will cry out in pain.

Oh so scary experience number I don’t know how many…

I’m in Penang today, working as usual onboard a gambling ship (oh don’t give me the raised one eye-brow look). I said I was working not gambling..sheesh. Anyway, finished my job, take a shower in the cabin they provided for me and while me was lazying around waiting for a chance to get off from the vessel only after I agreed to have dinner with the lot of them (anything for the client as they are the ones who pay for my expenses later on).

Back to my story, I was haphazardly loitering inside the cabin and then there is this knock on the door. My door. Wow. Dinner time already and I’m just half-way thru my bag of Twisties. There stand this Thai woman (can’t use lady coz she just barge in my room and locked the door) what the hell?

Scratching my not so itchy scalp/head (I have less hair currently), “Massage time” she said. What massage? Did I order any? When? How? Why? Why? Why? Being polite here, so I move my stuff from the bed and help woman who is toying with the lights in my room. Is she doing maintenance or massage, now I’m confused? Was helping here and why the hell did I help? Had no idea and not gonna think about it either. Fix the light and I was on the edge of the bed facing my laptop, I was trying to work…well actually was watching this new anime I bought ehehehe and the women just spoils my fun time out.

Then she starts pressing my back with her fingers and her back on my back. How many back does it take to make people see my back? LOL. Not funny, I know. I was having this hectic cry for help in my head telling me, what the F**K shud I do? Can’t just slide down the bed coz there is no more space for me to run. Damn those people on the Bridge!

So I let her do her “Thai massage” (not enjoying it either) for about 15 minutes or so…but damn felt like an eternity before she said “Must start massage” (use a soft spoken Thai dialect while saying that)… thank God for no goose bumps…yet.

Ok, so the only thing that I can make her stop her move is to pay her and she might leave me alone...yeah, that might work. So I paid her for her “service” (which is the easiest money she ever made in her life at that moment).I need her to stop rubbing her front on my back…it hard to work with bumps ahead (get it? Bump ahead? No...Ah forget it!)

I am not going to let that kinda things put my day off…its creepy, the only part I let the opposite sex touch is my feet (reflexology) and my hair (hair cut) and nothing below the torso and above the knee. So to shake the frightening images off is for me to run, run like the wind but I can’t do that since I’m onboard the ship. What’s left? Eat I guess (there goes my diet)

So, see ya next time when the shivers gone…I’ll be back.

Malasku menjadi jadi (nasib baik tak jadi Incredible Hulk)

Apa punya panjang daa tajuk kali nih. Samada aku terlalu rajin atau aku saja saja buat rajin atau memang saja tak rajin tapi sebab nak rajin punya pasal aku tulih jugak.

Dah berkampung semula kat Pasir Gudang, Johor buat minggu kedua carta surveyor pop-ular maka tiada apa yang dapat aku nak mengomel selain daripada lepas balik keja, makan dan tido. Ada la tengok TV jap pastu TV tgk aku sampai ke pagi. Bermoral sungguh ya.

Ni pun menulis sebab bukan kerna nama kekekek, tapi sebab nak isi ruang-ruang kosong selama 2 minggu tak meluahkan isi hati yang tak seberapa sedap (saya tak makan hati atau apa apa organ dalaman, betulllllll). Tapi ada juga terbaca kat mana tah pasal komen orang yang tulih blog ni. Memang semua orang ada pandangan berbeza tapi tak semestinya apa yang kita kata pada orang lain boleh diterima pakai sepenuhnya kan kan kan? Tepuk lah dada, tanya lah selera. Orang boleh cakap apa yang mereka nak cakap, keputusannya kita yang amik sendiri.

Beralih topik yang lain pulak...lagi 3 minggu campur tolak, akan berangkat lah saya dan ehehehe..tak yah bagitau, nanti orang banyak komen...ke Bali untuk menghabiskan stok cuti tahun lepas dan tahun ni skit. Dari perbincangan tertutup dua belah pihak, maka persetujuan telah dicapai dimana akan mengikuti tour sambil belajar, makan di beri percuma, so apa lagi amik je lah..hotel pun boleh gagah...duduk pun kat area dimana senang nak gerak sana sini tanpa perlu kenderaan, apa lagi mau. Bali here I coming (bukan ayat salah ye, saja salahkan ia).

Last time gi Bandung dari Jakarta naik ketapi kira-kira 2 tahun lepas..best jugak tripnya...banyak la jugak borong baju-bajuan, orang Malaysia memang bercambah kiri kanan, semua pegang beg kiri kanan sampei tak ingat dunia (mentang-mentang murah). Aku? Aku ok saja (mana boleh citer keburukan diri sendiri, gilo ko).

Penatnya...nak mandi jap kat Yard, pastu balik makan la kut. Malas la pulak nak pi parti kat Kapal pasal apa? Hari ni pakai T-shirt cokia saja...segan la nak berposing dgn orang orang besar atas kapal kelak kekekekek. Last minute baru cakap...saja la tuh tak nak bagi aku pi.....

Sampai di sini saja laporan terkini, secara langsung dari opis sementara kat Pasir Gudang...ada apa2 citer menarik, saya kobarkan lah laie...Wassalam.

Same goes here and there

It's 2 am and I try to finish this quick. I thought after the Dubai sting, I would have some decent time in the office to sort my work and cleared out the tangle mess which started from I don't know what end, till now..which does not make me look good in the taking care of things department.

Honestly, whenever I got some time to spend, there's always things to do and people who calls and ask silly question. Honestly people, I don't know how the hell I can get my job done without interuption. Practically non existance.

I've been running up and down in Miri for the past 3 times this week, sheer pressure of actually being the only guy who has spent some time making my mark in Sarawak all in all I spend about 9 years here, 6 years during my sailing years in Bintulu and 3 years as a multiple oppurtunist who try to make a stand at least 5 years but end up as said before.

Oh, it was not all that bad. It was fun and fun and fun. I curce less back then when compare to now, Now...after 5 minutes coming out from the house I started to swear already. There goes my morning sunshine eheheheh. Its gonna be a pretty busy week, hope my boo is ready from some weeks without me hanging around the house.

P/s: Happy belated Labour day. I was working on the day after, talk about being efficient ( more like being forced to work, lol)

Adios people!

Plan assunder

Yeah, that the room I got from Ramada..not bad, Dhs 500 plus for a nite...costly? Absolutely! So in that kinda spirit, I spend the rest of yesterday's nite in the room. Was ready to go out and be a tourist and snap some Burj Dubai towers but then it came. A slight headache, then follows with a little dizziness (not seeing stars yet, mind you). Oh crap...this gonna cost me a few hours of rest before I can walk straight...crap crap crap.

So basically, I have not seen Dubai Mall not the tallest tower in the frickin' world and tonight is reserved for dinner and HRC. Screw the other place, this is the place where I can make up for my Boo and buy stuff for him. Yeah...and for my sister and bro in law as well. They better pay me back afterwards or I'm selling it to the next person.

Then tomorrow before leaving and taking my flight back to KaYel, there's this official souveniers shopping for frens...yes fridge magnet which is why people love it soo much whenever I travel. What do you think I am...a post man? But I dun deny, being the travelling person does make me kinda popular amongst Boo's fren and family eheheheh ( He is my personnel PR, telling his fren that I went here and there kekekeke but then it came with a price...the fridge magnet...can't actually asked people to pay for it, can I? that would make me look cheap..sheeesh...shear dilemma)

Anyway, I guess I'm good in other ways. A little tacky here and there but otherwise great. I do hope that I can be healthy tonite and eat my heart out! Till then, cheerios people. have a really good day!

Where have I gone?

I was not around very much.....plenty sorry. Procrastination as usual.Life's like that. Suck up and move on eheheheh.

I'm now in a land of the land, a land hot wind and sandstorm, camel dung, belly dancer's run amok, and skyscraper reaching for the skies. Not to mention the land known for very loud Honk. Honk you ask? Honestly. I'm in my room on the 6th floor and the windows are shut but you could hear them blaring on the ground below. Some poor schmuck musta have his hearing impaired from that, I assure you.

Being back in Dubai sure bring back memories...I don't know...just being here is hell...kinda great. Development stil here but a lot has been on halt due to the current trend across the world where money is concerned. Thank god for that otherwise it will be one of those crazy metro town crawling with traffics and honks of those damn big four wheelers.

I have not come for vacation, far from it. I had a training to undergo which I've missed back in Freemantle on February, so this is my revenge but hey, not complaining. Wheather wise is not that bad, stil hot but less humid, so again..thank God for that.

Been put up at Ramada hotel in Bur Dubai, not a bad place, just a walking distance from office, convenience store, eatery place and yes, our office here in Dubai is somewhat like my office back in KaYel, office on top, shopping complex at the bottom and man u need a lot of energy strolling from end to end and up 3 floor to cover the whole mall..don't let me start on Mall of Emirates...they have ski slope inside there...go figure how big it is. But I will skip that this trip. Just wanna go to Deira City and HRC which should cover the basis for me, plus I don't feel like crazy spender now that my responsibility is getting bigger and bigger. And I'm not just talking about the significant other, lol. Oh behave people this is not a controlled page, mind you.

Oh yeah before I came here, had a pretty nice dinner and karaoke session with frends. Dinner was great although not using cable this time...i knew it i shud have call the manager there and fix us a quickie. Mental note to self...never throw good chance and easy dinner when going there next time. By there I mean Tony Roma's.

Spoilt the karaoke session though which was supposed to be at Red Box the Curve but since I'm late, they gave the room a way..damn it! So the venue has been moved to 1 Utama instead...lucky. Lucky that they have room at 11.30pm. Better than nothing right?

So how many people were supposed to be there? Less than 10 originally but end up only 4, including me. Oh well, better since I got a chance to be silly in less stupid situation. But hey, it was fun fun fun.

Now i get lotsa stuff to write eheheheh and so little time, I haven't had my morning shower yet.... Yes by this I'm feeling perky today and hope that everything goes well today. Just finish browsing the net, I have to do The Dubai Mall. Freaking big shopping mall by the side of Burj Dubai the freaking tallest building in the world standing at almost 900 meter from land level. The building itself is not yet finish but hey, last time I was here, you can see bits and pieces but now..now is a different story altogether. Damn it, why I never notice it yesterday...should have gone there yesterday. Hm......

Anyway, I need to shower, really. Otherwise I'm late for the bus and skipping breakfast at the hotel...it's expensive to be eating at Dhs 50 just for breakfast don't cha think?

Ok, I'll get back soon, I have plenty of stuff to pan for today actually after the classes finish. I just hope that I can cover two place in just about 4 hours including tranportation. I just gotta love the rush ehehehe.

Salam...as they said it and see ya all later later.