It has been quite a few months since i have been to the sea for surveys, not that i don't want to but rather i have been tied down by the same ship for the 1st quarter of 2008 and finally it manages to sail out. How unlucky can you think i'd be? Well first time it was luck, 2nd time was a bummer and yeah, like what people like to call it, 3rd times the charm. I don't see any charm in that but I do get some unpleasent comments and weird request by the ship owner. I mean how bad can it be right? Beside they are losing USD 35K per day under charter...well there is nothing much I can do but stop myself from saying something stupid.
The keyboard on the ship's computer is pretty fucked up and I don't have the pleasure of calibrating them, just thought that I fill in some gaps since my last entry. What can I say, I'm busy and have hardly any room for myself of late, but not complaining...it has been a swell time of my life. I can have time for myself when I die....soon, but not too soon. I'm pretty sure this will look bad when being published, do bear with me...I promise to sort this out when I get a better connection...at land. BTW, I'm writting this blog in the middle of south china sea, how kool can it be? Well beside being in north or south pole that is..but anyway, enough with the chatter, i need to sleep since i have not been able to do so for the last 3 days...freaking tired and lazy to the bone.
Hasta la vista, babeh
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
My Guardian Angel
I will never let you fall,
I'll stand up with you forever,
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven......
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel
What if the person you love most celebrate your birthday by him/her self. What does that say about you? What if he buy a cupcake, a candle and lit it and blow it out...for the sake of having the feel of celebrating your birthday but you were not around. You were too busy not noticing that your work take a toll on the person that you love. How does that makes you feel?
Are you proud to be in a relationship that you forget for that one single day....its your birthday and you didn't think it matters to you but for the person who loves you...it means the world to them. Written like a true angst ridden individual, how I love being in that particular role.
But as they say, time makes you grow wiser but not necessarily in every aspect. For my own negligence and short coming, I never thought I have that kind of impact to such a very wonderful person....Chris...I love you. Love itself is life and my life is somehow intertwine with yours.
Forgive my bluntness for I have missed so much, in my ignorant and selfish self...I have failed to notice your wishes, your dream. Forgive me for I am blood, I am haven and I am sin.
I'll stand up with you forever,
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven......
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel
What if the person you love most celebrate your birthday by him/her self. What does that say about you? What if he buy a cupcake, a candle and lit it and blow it out...for the sake of having the feel of celebrating your birthday but you were not around. You were too busy not noticing that your work take a toll on the person that you love. How does that makes you feel?
Are you proud to be in a relationship that you forget for that one single day....its your birthday and you didn't think it matters to you but for the person who loves you...it means the world to them. Written like a true angst ridden individual, how I love being in that particular role.
But as they say, time makes you grow wiser but not necessarily in every aspect. For my own negligence and short coming, I never thought I have that kind of impact to such a very wonderful person....Chris...I love you. Love itself is life and my life is somehow intertwine with yours.
Forgive my bluntness for I have missed so much, in my ignorant and selfish self...I have failed to notice your wishes, your dream. Forgive me for I am blood, I am haven and I am sin.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Aftermath
How did my birthday went? It was swell actually. My dearest send me dozen of roses plus a teddy bear...nice eh? But I didn't take the ripple it will cause in my office, starting from my collegue who blares out loud about my birthday and there is something at the receptionist for me. Yes, there is something actually for me. I was puzzled at first, who the hell in their right mind would send flowers to a guy.
By the way, the receptionist did call my extension but I was in the toilet at that time, mind you of what I'm doing there in the morning, it's my business..sheesh. So there I was at the counter, all puzzled and was very sure that the things are for me. Yup, sceptical and guilty as charged. Fiddling thru the bouquet, I manage to find the small card and peek inside...jeng jeng jeng....oh the tension is a killer. Yes, it was from my significant other. Last year I send to him somewhat similar items, to his work place...imagine the attention he gets that day..well what do you know, I got the same yesterday. Problem is all the people here in the office thinks it was from my girl friend...yeahhhhh....righttttttt........ Like that gonna happen real soon or ever.
Being tease is one thing, but getting it left, right and basically from all sides does freak me out. How will I answer them? Can they handle the truth? Or shuold I just smile and hope that they will forget it quick, really quick. And yeah after that I got a little jug and a freaking big cup as a present as well.
Best part was, I did call my mom and she was frantically calling up my sisters to get hold of my mobile. Not that I didn't trust my mum or what but I need to take it slow. I don't want to end up where I left before. That will make no sense at all. The point is, my mum was glad that I called and all she wanted to do was wish me a happy birthday...oh don't look at me like I'm a bad and ungrateful son ( even though I am, but please don't burst my bubble on my fun day). Talked for a while and told her I'm going back on the following weeks after the school break. I don't like fighting on the road with all the soccer mums and dads hauling their offsprings for "balik kampung" session, hence why I choose the date and plus there is another round of......*que dramatic music pleas*....paintball war! This time somebody gonna get hurt real bad. Last time I played, I manage to avoid getting hit. Either I'm that good or the opponent gets killed easily. Morale boosting moments here people.
Apart from that, I think my butt is gonna be on a hot seat today. Indulge on that thought, but not too much or to a certain degree and get it out from the gutter..its not that sleezy.
By the way, the receptionist did call my extension but I was in the toilet at that time, mind you of what I'm doing there in the morning, it's my business..sheesh. So there I was at the counter, all puzzled and was very sure that the things are for me. Yup, sceptical and guilty as charged. Fiddling thru the bouquet, I manage to find the small card and peek inside...jeng jeng jeng....oh the tension is a killer. Yes, it was from my significant other. Last year I send to him somewhat similar items, to his work place...imagine the attention he gets that day..well what do you know, I got the same yesterday. Problem is all the people here in the office thinks it was from my girl friend...yeahhhhh....righttttttt........ Like that gonna happen real soon or ever.
Being tease is one thing, but getting it left, right and basically from all sides does freak me out. How will I answer them? Can they handle the truth? Or shuold I just smile and hope that they will forget it quick, really quick. And yeah after that I got a little jug and a freaking big cup as a present as well.
Best part was, I did call my mom and she was frantically calling up my sisters to get hold of my mobile. Not that I didn't trust my mum or what but I need to take it slow. I don't want to end up where I left before. That will make no sense at all. The point is, my mum was glad that I called and all she wanted to do was wish me a happy birthday...oh don't look at me like I'm a bad and ungrateful son ( even though I am, but please don't burst my bubble on my fun day). Talked for a while and told her I'm going back on the following weeks after the school break. I don't like fighting on the road with all the soccer mums and dads hauling their offsprings for "balik kampung" session, hence why I choose the date and plus there is another round of......*que dramatic music pleas*....paintball war! This time somebody gonna get hurt real bad. Last time I played, I manage to avoid getting hit. Either I'm that good or the opponent gets killed easily. Morale boosting moments here people.
Apart from that, I think my butt is gonna be on a hot seat today. Indulge on that thought, but not too much or to a certain degree and get it out from the gutter..its not that sleezy.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Hepi Birthday
Its the time of the year where you know you will either dread it or love it. I'm thinking, well wanting actually it to be the later. Wishful thinking *fingers crossed in all possible manner*
I'm not a kid anymore, so perish the thoughts of throwing parties and stuff...I'm not into that.
There 's this one time in my final year in Polytechnic, I sorta celebrate my birthday but only limited to my house mate. These guys actually love doing this stuff. Oh lordy..what have I got myelf into. Nothing fancy, my friend cooks, few decorations and a birthday poster on the wall, courtesy of me, the birthday boy and who can forget cakes and candles. Just thinking about it made me laugh out lout...in my head. Don't want to spoil the fun to my morning colleagues now, do i. Heheheheh
Blasted memory recalls. It was fun though..at that time. Now I just fiddle through whatever the day drops onto me and do the darnest to go back home feeling good or at least less worrying so that I can have a decent sleep at night. Anyway.....ok I actually rewritten this particular sentences 3 times before I could actually find the erm...right feel to it. Oh, who am I kidding, I rethink most of the thing I wanted to say..a pause if you will, a silent notes before the big storm. Word..spoken or written have an impact if said in a right manner or being lashed out blindly..so I try not to lash...I just keep quiet.
Anyway...Good job for making it through this year...it starts quite slow but picking up pace gradually. In 3 months I manage to do stuff which I can be proud and not so proud of but that depends on how we perceive things...it is so subjective and open for various interpretation, of which I do not want to ramble on. I pay off my debt (finally), get back with the family, sorting things..personal wise and work wise. Work actually needs a little more fine tuning and hopefully I can make the grades and perform well this year.
Here's a big cheer to myself, love myself better, be patience, be wise, be funny, laugh more, be more merrier and get a house!
Happy Birthday to me!
I'm not a kid anymore, so perish the thoughts of throwing parties and stuff...I'm not into that.
There 's this one time in my final year in Polytechnic, I sorta celebrate my birthday but only limited to my house mate. These guys actually love doing this stuff. Oh lordy..what have I got myelf into. Nothing fancy, my friend cooks, few decorations and a birthday poster on the wall, courtesy of me, the birthday boy and who can forget cakes and candles. Just thinking about it made me laugh out lout...in my head. Don't want to spoil the fun to my morning colleagues now, do i. Heheheheh
Blasted memory recalls. It was fun though..at that time. Now I just fiddle through whatever the day drops onto me and do the darnest to go back home feeling good or at least less worrying so that I can have a decent sleep at night. Anyway.....ok I actually rewritten this particular sentences 3 times before I could actually find the erm...right feel to it. Oh, who am I kidding, I rethink most of the thing I wanted to say..a pause if you will, a silent notes before the big storm. Word..spoken or written have an impact if said in a right manner or being lashed out blindly..so I try not to lash...I just keep quiet.
Anyway...Good job for making it through this year...it starts quite slow but picking up pace gradually. In 3 months I manage to do stuff which I can be proud and not so proud of but that depends on how we perceive things...it is so subjective and open for various interpretation, of which I do not want to ramble on. I pay off my debt (finally), get back with the family, sorting things..personal wise and work wise. Work actually needs a little more fine tuning and hopefully I can make the grades and perform well this year.
Here's a big cheer to myself, love myself better, be patience, be wise, be funny, laugh more, be more merrier and get a house!
Happy Birthday to me!
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